As of right now I'm officially trying to get with somebody... it's really fucking strange to admit it, but I really like her. She's a few years older, has a kid, and is into things that I'm not... but that's honestly okay. She's a little crazy, and I dig that in chicks. Eccentricities are fascinating to me, and are the spice of life in my humble opinion. But it can be over done...
However...
I need to think of the positives about her.
She is older, and she acts it. She has her moments where it seems like there's some immaturity, but we all have those moments. She's easy for me to talk to, and I like that. I was able to approach her easily when I met her, which made things interesting for once. She's not overly pretty, but that's not to say she isn't attractive. FAR from it. Obviously I'm attracted, and not in the "slamming body that needs a paper bag over the head" way. While she does have a smokin' hot bod, I like her in more than just a physical sense.
Oh god, the physical sense. Something about that chick just really gets me going. I haven't had that for two and a half years, and now I have it again. I want her in more ways than I can describe, and to keep my hands off seems a degradation to her name. I refuse to mention a name in here, because well... we're both still single. But my god... to admit that I am finally attracted to somebody that is attainable, that is easy to talk to...
I just want to follow her around like a goddamn lost fucking puppy.
See, I mention all of this because tonight I missed the physical contact. The hugging, the kissing... the biting, the, well, fucking everything. Granted we've only hung out three times now, and had any sorts of physical contact twice out of those three times, there is still that ever elusive spark that could mean a great relationship, or a great FWB. My money is more towards the relationship aspect even though the ink isn't dry on my divorce papers, because whatever god there is knows I don't want to be alone the rest of my life, and I'm totally over hating women for any reason :)
Things are still too early on to tell, though. There's only a few things I'm not a huge fan of, but it's nothing that can jeopardize anything. Like I said, it's the little eccentricities that I find attractive. She has them. Shes amazing, in my opinion. I'm sure I'll look back on this in a few years and wonder if I'm running off of a second hand high from the pot, but well... idc to be fucking honest.
I could very easily be falling again... and when I fall I fucking do it hard and fast. I'm just trying to watch out and take my time for, well... not much left to take my time with.
Anyway, that's what's on my mind. Her. She's all that's been on my mind, and it's a beautiful thing to not have my ex-wife on my mind anymore. Fucking beautiful beyond belief.
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