Sleepless

It's dangerous to read over my past blog posts anywhere. Guaranteed, somewhere within the confines of my writing you'll see proclamations of love to various girls and women throughout the years, each one valid in their own way. It's just funny that my moods change depending upon which one I'm "with" at any point in that self-contained time line.

Winter is a season of reflecting, of evaluation of self. Make note of the things you'd like to change and, at the start of the new year, work towards those goals.

Hopefully I never have to read through years of Lauren/Lani/Christina/Amanda/Stephanie bullshit and can just focus on Felicia and I. Makes things somewhat awkward when I go through and read about my past emotions and feelings. Makes me feel kind of childish.

To a degree.

Another interesting aspect of past relationships is where my music was going. Stylistically at least. When I was with Lani I was so nearly-constantly angered and upset over something that my music was always fast and aggressive. Here anymore I'm calmer, almost at peace. It's reflected in where I'm going with my sound, progression via regression I say. Kinda catchy actually, might use it for an album title. Ha! Then again, Only Time struck me as a decent band name... Kinda describes where I'm at, too. Only time will tell... it's a phrase I saw used a few times over the course of the last few entries.

Overall I've just become happier over the course of the last seven months. There really isn't much, if anything, that I would change.

I'm sure I had so much more I wanted to say, but I've lost my thought train. Damn things derail so easily when you're multi-tasking...